Happy Pride, y’all. I don’t know about you, but I started this month off by being reminded that some people still believe homosexuality is a sin that should be repented of or be healed from, and 2019 Me does not put up with that shit. So here is an exhaustive list (and trust me, an equally exhausting list because have you ever had to justify a part of your life to people for no good reason? It’s wearing) of why being LGBTQ+ isn’t a sin.
1. Acting on homosexuality will send you to hell.
FIRST, let’s address the concept of hell: the theory is that God loves us very much and wants to spend eternity with us, but only if we do everything It tells us to do. If we don’t, It will kill us, and torture us, forever. I’m not impressed with this. To me, this is textbook emotional abuse. To me, God is an abusive, manipulative partner, and I am glad I split up with It. Why do people who disagree with the concept of an Angry God still have to bear Its punishment? Who made that rule? Oh, Angry God?
One of the most ironic passages in the Bible to me is John 3:16-17 (yes, that John 3:16). God loves us and wants to save us, but It was also the one that condemned us in the first place. Because we aren’t worthy of salvation unless we apologize for being human and tell Angry God we’re going to do everything It says. Nothing says “unconditional love” like creating a person, giving them free will, and then punishing them for not choosing exactly what you wanted them to.
SECOND, there is the school of thought that you can be gay (?) but not act on being gay (?), and therefore not really be gay (?), and thusly not be tortured for all of eternity by a loving Angry God. This loving god would MAKE you gay, and then if you “acted” on that, It would punish you. While this is a great tongue-twister, it is not great logic. Either being gay is a CHOICE and we must choose not to act on it, or it is a CURSE from Angry God as a way of testing us.
THIRDLY, why does Angry God care about homosexuality, anyway? What is it about the gays that really gets Angry God’s goat? Is it the fashion? Is it the brunch? Is it the fantastic sex? I’m confused. The Old Testament condemned homosexual acts in the same manner as it banned mixing cloth materials or sleeping in your house while on your period, but we’ve mostly most past those. The belief here is that Old Testament laws were more about cleanliness than they were about holiness, and I’m pleased to report that health and safety standards have dramatically improved over the last four thousand years. In the New Testament, gay sex is condemned in a few places by a few humans who are, generally speaking, fallible and biased.
2. In the Bible, God destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah because of homosexuality.
Nah, God destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah because the citizens wanted to gang-rape foreigners that came to their land seeking hospitality. It doesn’t so much matter where they wanted to put their penises as it does that they wanted to do so without consent.
3. Being gay is believing Satan’s lies.
Okay at this point I don’t know if Angry God and Satan are the same or different. Either of them can give you something as a temptation and either can make you be a certain way and either wants to see you burn in hell? What is this Bad Cop Bad Cop routine, and did anyone think this through? Regardless, Angry God punishing you for believing the lies of a creature that acts EXACTLY LIKE IT seems a little sadistic.
4. You can pray the gay away.
Oh honey, no.
You can build up as much guilt as you want to about being gay, but praying to Angry God to take it away from you is not going to work, similar to the way conversion therapy does not work. Can it bury hope that you can be gay under layers of a religion that relies on its participants to be afraid of being their authentic selves? For sure! Can it stop you from being gay? No.
Being gay isn’t a disease from which a person needs to be healed. It’s not something we’ve been stricken with. It’s just who we’re attracted to. I’m not sick, I’m in love with my wife. I don’t need to pray that away.
5. You have to subscribe to my personal religious beliefs.
No. No, I really don’t. Just because one person believes that Angry God is actually good and kind and loving and not at all wanting to murder at least half of Its creation doesn’t mean that everyone else believes in that same god (or a god at all). As such, we don’t have to hold your beliefs up as the moral compass by which we live our lives. AND GET THIS: some people in your own religion believe different things, and they can still be religious and you can still be religious and other people can not be religious and we can all get along in peace.
Per my last email, the idea of spending an eternity with the same people who have spent their earthly lives promoting hatred, discrimination, intolerance, and violence against my community falls into my definition of hell. I would rather suffer eternally with people I love than with people who hate me.
I don’t say this to hurt anyone, I say it to stand up for myself and my community. I have grown weary of listening to people’s concern for my eternal salvation. I am comfortably gay and have been out for several years, so seeing protesters at Pride events or being evangelized online or being given ex-gay pamphlets just makes me angry now, but there are young people just coming into their identities who still have their own fears and insecurities, and when they hear those messages it grows guilt and shame. This is one of the reasons LGBTQ+ youth are almost five times as likely as straight youth to have suicidal thoughts or actions. I am not willing to see more LGBTQ kids kill themselves because they believe that would be better than being queer. If I need to yell for them, I will yell. I will be angry, and I will loudly disagree with you. We are not sick, we do not need your healing. We do not need your heaven. We do not need your Angry God.